Suicide on my mind August 25, 2006
Posted by Jonathan in : Uncategorized , trackbackI think a lot of suicide, especially today though, my life isn’t great, my life can be classed as ‘okay’. Yeah you might say I’m lucky(my internet freinds), but inside my gut feelings I feel bad - I don’t mean bad, I mean I’m always feeling sad even when I laugh. I’ve fought of Suicide since when I was 11, I have never told any one as this is the way I usually am, I like to be secretive when it comes to my emotions - as I don’t like sharing them only if some one is actually ‘willing’ to talk through to me about my problems. (I haven’t found a single person which I am comfortable talking it through with. There is Simon, but he is my Teacher which makes me talking to him uncomfortable and very nervous.)
Zoe, I don’t know. She’s to crazy for serious talk, I think. All my other freinds are not serious, they’re nut bags, or they’re people who don’t want to care about what I say. I can’t blame them, why would they want to hear such a person as myself rambling on at them .
I’ve just had enough of life, everything I do I find a dispapointment.
Sorry for the bad wording and spelling I’m a little tired.
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